Sunday, February 19, 2012

Go Forward with Faith

Have you ever been to Disneyland? It’s the most magical place on earth! it’s full of fatty foods, cartoon characters, awesome rides, and the longest lines you will ever stand in! I love it.

you don’t think about the lines when you prepare to go. that’s why you get blisters on your feet. but in reality, you are spending hours of your day in LINE! why would you do that?

in some cultures, people will get in line because it means food. i had a professor who tried out an experiment with a couple friends. they stood in a row and within minutes there was a line forming. as they realized they had created a false promise for these people, they sheepishly, one by one, left the line.

at Disneyland, all the lines lead to good things. and you can choose which one to get in. you either get a deliciously hot churro, a picture with Mickey Mouse, himself, or a thrilling and adorable ride.

not only do you get what you’re promised, but the atmosphere while you’re waiting is fun and inviting. AND you have your family and friends to talk to creating wonderful bonding experiences!

i have heard that standing in line is what hell is like, but i would like to submit that is it what life is like. Heaven is different. Heaven is what we’re standing in line for. only, it lasts a lot longer than a ride at Disneyland, and is infinitely better!

you see, what we don’t always realize about standing in line, is when we move forward. slowly but surely, we go from the back of the line to the front. and if we are wise, we spend our time in line growing closer to the people we love, recognizing the beauty around us, and becoming better for the wait.


when i was asked to speak on “going forward with faith” i almost laughed out loud. this topic is one that i have been dealing with a lot lately, and honestly, i think this was the answer to my prayers. i am grateful to have the opportunity to study this topic and share the things i have learned.

President Packer shared a story about a time when he felt a difficulty moving forward. He said, “We once had a major decision to make. When our prayers left us uncertain, I went to see Elder Harold B. Lee. He counseled us to proceed. Sensing that I was still very unsettled, he said, “The problem with you is you want to see the end from the beginning.” Then he quoted this verse from the Book of Mormon, “Dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith” (Ether 12:6).

He added, “You must learn to walk a few steps ahead into the darkness, and then the light will turn on and go before you.” 

one of the key principles i discovered in moving forward with faith is patience. 

President Uchtdorf describes patience as the ability to put our desires on hold for a time. He says, “Patience was far more than simply waiting for something to happen—patience requires actively working toward worthwhile goals and not getting discouraged when results don’t appear instantly or without effort.”

in the Strength of Youth, we learn that much is required of us. but we are taught that we are capable of reaching our full potential. we should ask ourselves two questions: 1. Am I living the way the Lord wants me to live? and 2. How have I been blessed by living these standards?

when we put the Lord first, He will make much more out of our lives than we can do by ourselves. (just as in institute this week. A member of the temple presidency spoke, and he said, talking about marriage, look for someone who loves the Lord more than he loves you. Because if they love the Lord most, he will love you more than he could have if he thought he loved you more) He will increase our opportunities, expand our visions, and strengthen our ability to meet lifes challenges.

President Uchtdorf said, “Never give up on anyone. And that includes not giving up on yourself.”

even when things seem to be going all wrong, if the Lord is first in your life, you can know you are right on track! Place the wisdom of the Lord above your own, for He is the source of all wisdom.

Elder Holland said, “Every one of us has times when we need to know things will get better. Moroni spoke of it in the Book of Mormon as “hope for a better world.” For emotional health and spiritual stamina, everyone needs to be able to look forward to some respite, to something pleasant and renewing and hopeful, whether that blessing be near at hand or still some distance ahead. It is enough just to know we can get there, that however measured or far away, there is the promise of ‘good things to come.’”

​He counsels, “Cling to your faith. Hold on to your hope. “Pray always, and be believing.” Indeed, as Paul wrote of Abraham, he “against all hope believed in hope” and “staggered not through unbelief.” He was “strong in faith” and was “fully persuaded that, what God had promised, he was able to perform.”

when we choose to get in line, we have faith that whatever we are getting in line for will be worth the wait. likewise, when we chose to come to earth we knew it would be worth it. and we can choose to endure well while we’re here if we exercise faith we can know it will all be worth it. 

President Uchtdorf said, “Patience is not passive resignation, nor is it failing to act because of our fears. Patience means active waiting and enduring. It means staying with something and doing all that we can—working, hoping, and exercising faith; bearing hardship with fortitude, even when the desires of our hearts are delayed. Patience is not simply enduring; it is enduring well!”

go forward with faith. in whatever you are working toward. 

Elder Holland encourages us, saying, "Don’t give up. Don’t you quit. You keep walking. You keep trying. There is help and happiness ahead—a lot of it. You keep your chin up. It will be all right in the end. Trust God and believe in good things to come.”

Pray to our Heavenly Father daily. express to Him your gratitude, and the desires of your heart. Study the Scriptures and apply what you read to your life. Go to church every Sunday, feel the Spirit, and let it change your heart. these are the "primary" answers, but they really do make all the difference, if you apply them.

When You go forward with faith, you will gain a stronger testimony and find true joy as you come to know your Father in Heaven and His Son, Jesus Christ, and feel Their love for you.



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Saturday, February 4, 2012

A Special Guest...

Hi!

I'm Tiny Lisa. I'm really shy, so I don't say a whole lot, but people really like me anyway! They always come up to me to have their picture taken with me. I don't do anything to provoke them, I'm usually just standing in the corner -smiling at them. What can I say? I'm a people watcher and I have a happy disposition. I don't see why I wouldn't, life is beautiful. When I am around, I can't help but be noticed.  I go to lots of parties and  have lots of friends. Will you be my friend, too? 



Alright, I'll be honest, lately, I've been working on some top secret detective work. No one catches on. They just think I'm standing in a dark garage for fun, I guess. I'm not gonna lie, I think it's pretty funny how they jump everyday when I startle them. It's not like I jump out screaming (like some would) I just stand there, in the light of the moon, or really just a little night light thingy... 

I'm hungry. I haven't eaten anything... (ever)! When I turn sideways it's like I disappear. 



Well, until next time! I'll be standing here.

Monday, January 30, 2012

I got sham and it ain't glam, it's talent!

As some of you may know, I really love plays, especially musicals. Who doesn't like it when people break out into song and dance?! I actually do know someone. When I was in NYC on a field study last year, one of my art professors showed he was a snob to plays. He liked operas, but he said that plays were the kitsch of the theater world. Low shot. I've been to an opera. In Milan. I fell asleep*.

Well, last night I had a dream and many of my friends from my last ward were in it. We were talking and someone said something descriptive using the word "sham". Someone turned, seeming confused (I think it was someone from my new ward) so the person who said it broke out into song, "I got sham, and it ain't glam..." waving her finger with attitude, then the rest of my old ward-ies joined in, finishing by raising their arms theatrically as they held out the last word, "it's talent!"

Who knew that was a thing? I learn so much while i'm asleep. I should do it more often...

I like my new ward well enough. The Bishop is phenomenal! And the people are pretty nice. Pretty and nice. But it's kind of different than what i'm used to. All the people are, well... they come from rich families. That's not a bad thing, but they just seem like they are still in the mindset that daddy will get them whatever they want and fix all their problems, and pay all their bills. They dress really immodestly - glamorously, and many of the comments people make are really shallow. It's like they mostly abide by the 'rules' of the church, but don't understand the gospel or live it's principles because they love it and WANT to live it. It's weird, but It's giving me a different perspective, which is always a good thing.

I think my dream was addressing the different dynamic of people and caliber of character. The one thing I wrote down in my notes at church yesterday was this:

I realized today that I am more attracted to those of spiritual strength than to any other kind of strength or physical attribute. If someone is doing their best, and seeking for virtue, they are the kind of person worth having in my life.

In movies, tv shows, or plays, the main character will more than likely be physically attractive. As the plot thickens, however, we may learn that they don't believe in God, or are lacking some other virtue, like chastity or they may have a drinking problem, or chicken pox, but we still root for them to win the heart of the heroine because they are the main character, and they are SO attractive!

But in real life, if I meet someone like this, I stop rooting for them. I don't mean I stop rooting for them to make good decisions, I just don't bring them closer to my heart and I don't see them in a romantic light.

In short, I guess I feel my old ward is more worthy of musicals, not because of how glamorous they are, but because they have what it takes to be in my heart. And that's sham. Apparently. So says my dream. :)

I got sham and it ain't glam, it's talent!


please forgive me for this image... it's more of a journal entry for a sketchbook about a dream I had than art I should be showing to people. It's not even completely accurate, there were guys singing too. But it applies here.

*I probably wouldn't have fallen asleep if it had been a more beautiful opera. and if I had been able to see the stage more easily (our seats were the ones rich, famous, or royal people would have sat in a long time ago to BE SEEN, and not to SEE).

Sunday, January 22, 2012

Danger

I was just thinking about some of the dangerous situations I've been in and thought I'd share a few.



One time, when I was in Rome, two of my friends and I heard about this gelato place that was supposed to be the best gelato in Rome or something. We were told, "it's located in a creepy little alley that  normally you would never want to go down..." Well, that sounded like a good enough description for us, so we embarked on going down every creepy alley we could find. We never found the gelato place, but boy, we saw some stuff... I wasn't really scared, but looking back, maybe I should have been.

One time, when I was swimming in the freezing waters of Lake Como, I almost drowned. The current combined with the low temperature, combined with my less-than-expert swimming abilities dragged me toward the small pier, and under the water. It was completely worth it though. One of the most fun things i can claim living through!

One time, I got my heart broken.

One time, when I was in New York, I was trying to meet up with some friends, but I kinda got lost and took the subway to a part of town that was sketch. It didn't take long for me to realize I wasn't in a place I wanted to be in -alone- so I got back on the subway. I don't know if I was in any kind of real danger, I HAD been coming from the temple, but anything could happen.

One time I was in this souvenir shop with my dad, but when I tried to leave, the witch locked the doors with her dark powers and cackled. She tried to to attack us, but I woke up screaming. I don't have many dreams that make me wake up in such a way, but since we were on vacation, I also woke the rest of my family. (sorry)

There are more serious dangers I have been in, but who wants to read about those? I can make art about those, and not have to talk about it with words... I think these are the things that inform the way I view life. They broaden my outlook. Sure, dangerous events make good stories, but they can also build character, and strengthen my abilities to conquer even more.

Wednesday, January 11, 2012

New Year's Goals

I'm not the best at making new years resolutions, but I am pretty good at setting goals for myself and reaching them. Over the break I was thinking about how I'm going to spend my time this semester now that I don't have classes. I am still working on a couple reports I wasn't able to finish because of an emergency that came up, but I need to be creative and feel fulfilled.



Goal #1. Make art everyday

I didn't get a degree in Studio Art for nothing so my first goal is to make art everyday. So far, I have done this. I have worked on a portrait nearly everyday, and now I have quite a few more self portraits. I need more faces, so let me know if I can do a portrait of you! I have also been working a lot on my younger sister's wedding announcements - which has been really fun and exciting. I've made a few different ones and they all look great. I'll post them after they have their official debut.




Goal #2. Exercise regularly

Well, this is awkward... I don't know what to say here... Haha. Okay, in my mind, I was thinking I would go running every morning. That hasn't happened yet. I think I do better with a running buddy. Anyone? I can say this, however, there are 2 flights of stairs in my new apartment (mom, that's TWO), and I have to go up and down them everyday. Multiple times. I have also walked to and from campus...



Goal #3. Apply Alma 38:12

Use boldness, but not overbearance; and also see that ye bridle all your passions, that ye may be filled with love; see that ye refrain from idleness. I love that it says to use boldness, but not overbearance. I want to incorporate this into my everyday life, and into the parts of my life that are not as successful as others. Okay... Do you want to know a secret? The scripture wasn't exactly the goal I wrote down, but I think it is a more reasonable one. i'll leave the actual one up to Kimber this year... Oh yeah, I think i'm doing okay on this goal too.

Thursday, November 24, 2011

A Truly GREAT Week!

The time has come and my show is up! I spent Wednesday setting up my show. Walking into a completely empty gallery was a little intimating, but I was excited to get started!



Thankfully I had my family there to help! It was a lot of work, especially the Tiny Lisa photos. I had to get them into a perfect grid. The gallery provided a laser level for us to use, which helped a lot with making the the edges perfect, but the outline was mainly my dad and Kimber!








Hanging the platform for the projector was exciting. At first, it was too close to the wall, making the size of the projection too small, so we had to move it back. It wasn't easy. but it was worth it. Hanging the veil was fun. I had my mom sew the top so that we would have something to thread the cable through. The challenge with the veil was complicated. It was far enough away from the wall that the image was nearly completely corrupted. You couldn't make out as many of the faces as you could have if I had printed it out as large as it was. On the other hand, it was probably better conceptually this way. I decided to pin up the top of the veil so that it billowed out a little, bunching the extra on the sides which would then fall forward too. This created a nice frame, made the image much more readable, and still referenced the veil. Awesome!



Here's a close up of the title of this piece:


The animations look amazing on the 4 foot TVs and 5 foot pedestals. All I had to do there was burn the DVDs. Thanks to Becky this worked out perfectly too!



Anxiety in Church


Anxiety in Public (watch this all the way through)




The vinyl was fun. I wanted to have the gallery print out the cutout I had created in adobe illustrator, but they didn't, so i had to create it freehand. It was fun though. I stood up against the wall while my mom and sister traced my silhouette with strips of vinyl. Then we adjusted it.



The first thing you see when you come to my gallery is a wall with my artist statement on it. (I like that you're confronted with a wall, it adds to my concept so subtly, and yet so poignantly.)



The lighting is dramatic, but necessary. I love it. It had to be dark for the projection; which is why the wall is there, to keep the outside light outside.



I had the review with my committee on Tuesday. It went really well! They all told me I had exceeded their expectations. They said that if they came in thinking it was an MFA (Masters of Fine Art) show they would believe it. They talked about each aspect of it, and let me explain further. When I told them about how real Tiny Lisa is to me (that I call her by name and everything) they pointed out that I think of her as a separate person, so the Tiny Lisa photos aren't even self portraits in a way. They said that must be a defense mechanism in a way. As I think about that I think that is really true. When I am on stage or in a role that is not my own, I am fearless, I can do anything without timidity. That's what Tiny Lisa does for me. She is also 2-dimensional in every way. After we talked about my show they asked what my plans were from here. I told them I want to have more shows like this one and I might do grad school. They told me about grad schools and that I could go anywhere because my portfolio is strong. Then they talked with me about the benefits of various ones.

My show will be up until November 29th. I have to take it down on the 30th. So act fast! You really don't want to miss it! (This post has taken me so long to write! Every time I work on it, something else comes up to steal me away.)

This has been a good week: Thursday was my opening reception, Friday and Saturday I celebrated my birthday, Sunday was good, Monday I was the featured artist in the DVA newsletter!!



Tuesday was my review, Wednesday I got to relax with great friends, and now it's Thanksgiving!



Could life get better than this? I submit that it could not!

I'm grateful my show is up, and that it was received so well and I am so grateful for the people in my life and the help and support they have given me. I look forward to having a party with all of you in Heaven!

Saturday, November 12, 2011

Publicity Done Right

Oh my gosh! I am SO excited! My show is next week. Less than a week away. But I am DONE making the art for it... and it's all awesome (obviously)! I do need to make Tiny Lisa more sturdy, so that she can stand up in a gallery for two weeks (Yes, I call the cardboard cutout of myself by name and refer to it with she and her). It shouldn't be too difficult, though, I just need to go into the wood shop. I also need to get the sheer white curtain. They didn't have white at IKEA. lame. I did get some bamboo for Becky's new office while I was there, so it wasn't a total waste of a trip. and meatballs. mmm, meatballs.

Another thing that was a big deal that I had to take care of on top of making the art for my show and having meetings was PUBLICITY. I made postcards for my show. I'm kind of in love with them. I want you (whoever you might be) to participate! print it out, cut out tiny lisa, and take a picture with her. if you can't come to my show, email it to me.

This is the Front:



This is the Back:



You don't have to get the reference, but when I was trying to figure out what to say as Tiny Lisa a certain video kept coming into my mind. You'll probably think it's really weird, but I kind of love it.



I may have taken this over the top with the fliers I made and put up in the HFAC and JKB on BYU campus. I think they are so funny, and I couldn't pass up this idea. It's so ridiculous! I cut the bottom into slips (not strips. I called them strips at first, but thought that saying, "Tiny Lisa strips for people" was inappropriate...) for people to take with them to remember the time and date of my reception.



awesome, right? Time for the Dance of Joy.