This church is really hard to fit into when you're different.
I'm single, but I'm also a mom. So I don't have a lot in common with those in the singles wards. Especially single men who claim they want to have kids. I think that a lot of the single men who are my age are looking for a mommy and not a wife. I'm not the girl they are looking for and they are certainly not the man I want in my life.
I'm a mom, but I'm single. So people in a family ward don't think they have anything in common with me.
I desperately want to have a calling. A job to do to let me feel useful and accepted. A safe place where I can be confident. But I haven't really had a calling since I've been divorced. In 2020 I was called to the Relief Society presidency, but then the whole world shut down. I have told my current bishop that I want a calling, but I've been in the ward for a year and still don't have one.
I know this isn't the right place for me, but what is the right place? A different singles ward? A family ward? Or should I just not go?
The last would be my first choice if it weren't for the pesky fact that I believe the gospel is true and love the Lord.
So where do I belong?
