One of the most ridiculous "issues" in our relationship was our differing parenting styles. But here's the thing. I have a parenting style, he doesn't. So the fact that he let that scare him so much was really dumb, because he didn't do any research on what parenting styles are. The pros and cons of each of them. And he never tried to define what mine was or his was.
This frustrated me because for a long time he used it as the main reason why we couldn't get married. He has since admitted the true reason and has shown true sorrow and remorse. His honesty and openness recently has somehow freed me and has allowed me to talk about what I've been through.
Here's the parallel I've found. Trevor taught me how to play poker, it has become something we both enjoy. I enjoy playing passively, and have zero interest in becoming an expert, a shark, or a professional. He, however, has had a lot of experience playing. He has read books. He follows poker players on YouTube. He has taken trips to play full time. He has made a lot of money learning and developing this skill. For him, he views it intellectually more than recreationally. I have learned a lot about it alongside him. He's always had a knack for numbers and statistics, which all goes into poker. It really is an incredible and complex game.
While he has spend hours learning and studying the game of poker, and practicing what he's learned in real life, I too, have studied, and implemented all I could about being a good parent. From college courses, to online articles, to mom groups, to tiktoks discussions. I have immersed in motherhood and parenthood. I have prayed and received blessings, and counseled in therapy, and have listened to the gentle guiding's from the Spirit as to how to handle the things my kids go through.
I am a good mom.
I know what my kids need. I'm in tune with their needs. God has given me stewardship over them, and as a righteous daughter of God, and a single mom, I am empowered with the specific divine wisdom I need to raise strong, compassionate, emotionally stable, God-trusting women. I am not coddling them when I react in love or kindness. I am not being a pushover when I listen to their thoughts or feelings and have a conversation with them instead of dismissing them. I validate them and their feelings and I do all I can to meet their needs.
Kindness matters.
And the thing that really gets me is the fact that the qualities he found to be so different than his idea of what parenting should be, are the things he loved and appreciated in me in our relationship. There are no double standards with me. I'm not going to treat him with gentleness and my kids with harshness. I don't think that punishment is the best form of rehabilitation. It's obvious it didn't work for him, so why the f would I want to incorporate that in parenting my children??
I read an article recently that spurred this entry into existence. It was about a video a mom made about being raised by boomers and how she has had to re-parent herself. As a psychotherapist she learned the destructive normalities of each generations parenting styles. She talked about what was normal for millennials growing up, and the negative purpose of the consequences we had as children.
Punishment is intended to let the receiver feel hurt or pain from their poor choice.
Instead of teaching kids what is expected or how to handle or react to things, our parents would say things like "because I said so, that's why." "Go to your room." We were put in time out or spanked. Or in some cases beaten or ridiculed. Still, my generation, or at least my sisters and I, were treated like humans.
Switches or Hot Wheel tracks were used before my time. And children should be seen and not heard had been the norm not too long before that.
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If you google parenting Styles this is what comes up:
- Parents are restrictive and punitive, with firm limits and little verbal exchange. They emphasize following directions and demand obedience without considering the child's point of view.
- Parents are firm but loving, providing nurturing, emotional support, discipline, and guidance. They encourage independence within limits, and this style is often recommended as the best modern-day parenting style.
- Parents are loving but don't exert much control, and there are low levels of demandingness. This style can be indulgent or neglectful.
- Parents are uninvolved and emotionally unavailable, not providing emotional support or guidance and taking minimal responsibility for their children's welfare. They may be literally not at home or simply don't give their children any attention at all.
- This loving style focuses on healthy parent-child attachment and bonding, and is meant to help children feel secure and connected to their guardians.
- This variation of authoritarian parenting is when parents are overly involved in their child's life, often hovering over them to make sure they are safe. They have a strong desire to control all outcomes of the child's life.
While I have a lot of fear and anxiety about the idiotic choices and ignorant leniency of my ex-husband, I strive to allow my children to take risks as safely as possible. I have also witnessed parents of my students helicopter parent, and it was heartbreaking to see their need for control diminish their child's creativity and confidence.
I think My parenting style is a hybrid of Authoritative and Attachment and I'm ok with that.
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