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I'm going through so much emotional turmoil that i feel physically sick. i have that cool sweat you get before you throw up. 

I have been spending time with him again. and sometimes it's really great. but i know he's lying to me. and everyone else in his life. he's self sabotaging and he's dragging me through his shit storm all over again. 

i know i should walk away. if i were my friend going through this i would tell her to drop this loser. but my heart loves him. and i know how good he has been to me. but now, unfortunately that is more like seeing his potential, and not who he is now. I'm disappointed.